How we came about..

Battered from my own life I decided to venture into the unknown- reckless..and hopeless.. vengeful, and in a self destructing mode RECKLESS because I felt like I had nothing to lose... HOPELESS because nothing in my life seemed to be going my way so I lost all hope that it’ll ever get better. VENGEFUL to the people who I thought had cheated me out of my life and in a SELF-DESTRUCTIVE mode as I felt that no one cared and I felt dispensable.

So I embarked on this journey into an unknown and the dark side of the cyber world. I travelled and travelled & I came across all kinds of people.. All of these people had their own reasons to be there. Some were there for fun, some for the experience, some were there because they too bored in their real lives, and some were too shy in their real lives. But there was something that all of them had in common. These so called fake profiles had nothing fake in them.. Although masked, the masked they wore showed their real faces..

We live in a strange world, really. We walk around all day everyday carrying the burden of the mask that we are sooo itching to get rid of; given a chance… we’d drop the pretenses in no time in anonymity. So these profiles provided these people the opportunity to drop their pretenses and be themselves….

Hopping and skipping from one online fling to another I bumped into him..and it changed me and my life forever..

I Will Wait For You

I will wait for you.

I will wait to hear the music of the stars

That drips like honey into my starving ears...
I will wait for the dawn-bright delight of your smile
As it breaks like cool foam on hot sand...
I will wait to touch that brown-gold skin;
With electric senses feel with my fingers
That body crafted by amorous gods.
I will wait for those limbs to twine lithe around me
Like the honeysuckle vine...dotted with fragrant flowers
That madden me into divine frenzy of longing...
And desire and love.
I will wait to taste ambrosia
Dripping dew-wet in hidden folds;
Mysterious sweet...get drunk
On you my love!
I will wait to hold you
Close against my heart...
Safe against all the storms that have battered you
And left you adrift on my shore.
I will wait to quench your hunger,
Slake your thirst;
Fill up your senses with me till
You lie content...
Satiate with the adoration of ages
That I shall pour on you..into you.
I shall defeat Time -
Travel back to our forgotten past that
We now dimly disbelieve...
Gather our memories hand in hand.
I shall voyage into the future
To build your haven of hope;
For your soul shall need to rest
After the weary journey of today.
You wander now between two worlds...
One dead...and one not yet born.
But my love....I beg you not to falter;
Lose not hope nor let courage fail-
For I will wait for you
Till the sun rises on a million tomorrows
For a million moons to wax and wane
Till all this mortal Earth is scattered
In brilliant stardust
Across the heavens....and till God smiles!
O my Love!
I will wait for you!!!!

Each Day

Is it really possible to fall in love with the same person every day? Day after day? It seems so incredible....but it's so real that you cannot deny the truth of this wonder. Each day that we meet online or speak...it seems that my heart is filled to the brim with love...and the next day...I find that I love her even more. The miracle of the infinite...the limitless...and the eternal. My days pass with her voice ringing in my ears...her eyes filling my vision....her thoughts swirling through my mind. God! It's so wonderful to be in such love!!!

I See You

I can see you lying still
Trembling
Breathing
Anticipating
With half-shut eyes of what is to come.

I can see you lying still
Waiting
Waiting
Waiting
For the first shock of my touch.

I can see you lying still
Quiet
Quiescent
Still
Responding to my first touch.

I can see you gleaming
In the dark
Pale breasts
Rising uninhibited
Proud under my hands.

I can see you surrender
In whispers
In moans
In half-voiced words
To my love and longing.

I can see you smiling
Breathing
Relaxing
Satisfied
Reluctant to release me
From the prison of your arms.

I can see you so clearly
Pearl of grace
Lying
In languid delight
But only in my mind's eye.

Explanations

I love you because of the way our souls match
I love you because you make me complete
I love you because you have healed me in so many ways
I love you because of what your voice does to me
I love you because your laughter makes me happy
I love you because your tears break my heart
I love you because you make my mornings so full of hope
I love you because you make my sunsets beautiful
I love you because you raise goosebumps on my skin
I love you for how you make my body sing
I love you because your thoughts give me silence and peace
I love you because you make my heart beat faster
I love you because you make my living so much sweeter
I love you because your name makes me smile
I love you because you tell me things I want to tell myself..
I love you because you listen to me saying things which you want to hear yourself
I love you because when I pine for you I know you feel the same
I love you because of your grace and love
I love you because of the gift you have chosen to give me
I love you because I know you have been to me like the rainbow after months of rains
I love you because you have been the rain after months of drought
I love you because of your words..as well as your silences
I love you because I feel the warmth of your love across the seas
I love you because you keep me in your thoughts
I love you because you are always in my thoughts
I love you because you have changed my world
I love you because you have showed me what love is
I love you because you are mine
I love you because I am yours
I love you because I just love you!

Cosmic Woman

This is how I imagine my Pearl now... born in the womb of the darkness of the Universe... in a blazing ball of fire... dispelling my darkness... my cold... my loneliness... giving me Life... giving me hope... creating the new Me... she is my Cosmic Woman...

I Do Not Want You

I do not want to make love to you
I do not desire that magnificent body
I do not seek the love-ripe lips
I do not lust for those heavy-sweet breasts
I do not hunger for that honey-dark cunt
I do not dream to be bound by those lithe legs
I do not yearn to fill my palms with delectable flesh
I do not thirst to taste you
I do not crave to fill my senses with your maddening woman scent

I seek you in adoration
I want you in my soul
I want you inside of me
I want to sense you in my blood
I want to hold you in each pulse
I want to bind you into my marrows
I want to feel your electric mind
Dance through my nerves
Thrill my cells
I want you and me
To become us
Us dancing to the starsongs
And be one single throbbing pulse
In the ancient heart of this Earth.

Come to me my love
Come to us!!!

Almitra On Love

"Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love."

And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said:

When love beckons to you follow him,

Though his ways are hard and steep.

And when his wings enfold you yield to him,

Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.

And when he speaks to you believe in him,

Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.

Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,

So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.

He threshes you to make you naked.

He sifts you to free you from your husks.

He grinds you to whiteness.

He kneads you until you are pliant;

And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,

Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,

Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.

Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;

For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."

And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips."

Celtic Love Knot

True love seeks no bounds. When you say ‘I Love You’ to your beloved, you try to put your entire life into those three words. For countless centuries, the form of expressions of love may have been different but in their inner essence remained the same. The Dutch sailors might have never imagined that their concept of love knot, made to remind them of their loved ones, would become a trend-setter for the future lovers.

A Celtic Love Knot represents two united lovers, with its two intertwining overhand knots. Celtic love knots have been in fashion from around five thousand years ago. Just as true love itself, the simplicity of the Celtic Love Knot is enigmatic, since this mystical symbol has no beginning and no end....an infinite loop that mirrors the ageless magick of eternal love.

This simplest form of love knot denotes eternity and continuity of life. Dating back to 2500 BCE, Celtic Spiral was made by the early generations of Celts in Europe, England, Scotland, Wales and Ireland. A triple-drop variation is a three-sided knot that embodies the three forces of nature - Earth, Fire and Water. One continuous line represents unity, strength, and fullness of spirit & being.

"This knot of love which hath no end
Sweetest of creatures to thee I send
To let you know my love is true
And that to none alive but you.

Therefore my humble mind is bent
Reward my love and give consent
To be my wife and live with me
As long as life shall granted be.

And I shall ever constant prove
To thee alone my only love
Then let us now unite our hearts
While life is spared we ne'er will part."

My Pearl

I did not find her... it was she who found me. What unseen hand of Fate guided her to my doors I do not know... and I guess neither does she. Neither of us had the least idea then that we would be standing here today... hand in hand... our hearts beating in unison... and if I did have any such thoughts... she would have been quick to lie down and roll on the floor in laughter! She actually did so several times... while I squirmed in embarrassment.

And then... bit by bit... little by little... our relationship started to change. I saw within the armour of her cyberimage and came face to face with a remarkable person... a human and a woman of incomparable beauty and grace... with a formidable mind and a heart full to the brim with love and courage and compassion. I met a soul which thrilled mine with her magic touch... and I awoke to the realisation that miracles do happen... even if they are wrapped in binary code.

As the days went by, I came to her with my own demons and my own pains... and her compassion healed me and started to make me whole again. Her love was like the gentle rain on parched earth... filled with the promise of life renewed. She taught me and taunted me to reach within and without... till I learnt to do so anew. She tested me till I thought I would shatter in a million pieces... only to leave me strengthened in her esteem and in my own clarity of purpose. She caressed my broken body and fractured heart with her all too human touch... restoring me to humanity and Faith. I had found not the object of my love...but the woman of my adoration... and she was my all too familiar friend and lover and keeper of my conscience through countless past ages now lost in faded memory and forgotten mists of Time.

I do not know what the Fates have decreed for us. Frankly, neither do I care or want to know. The only certainity that matters is the bond that binds our souls... a bond that is formed in the flames of passion but tempered in the forge of reality... a bond that grows stronger and more magical with each passing day. What matters is the spontaneous smile that lightens our faces when our phones ring... or when our chat window blinks green. What matters is the quick glow of joy that surges within us as random thoughts of each other flit through our waking hours... and the deep peace that fills our nights and dreams. What matters is the tears that spring in our eyes at the other's pain... and the courage we feel with the now certain knowledge that we are no longer alone.

My Pearl chose me... as the Sword chooses its Warrior... and I am grateful and glad!!

Fiat nos!!!

This is us....and this is our testament in Time.